I was 20 when I first began presenting on national television. As a product manager for a direct marketing company, one afternoon the boss asked me if I would present one of our products the next morning on Good Morning Australia. With a personality of pushing myself through fear barriers, I immediately agreed with a smile and left the overwhelm and panic to deal with later in the evening.
As it turned out I quite enjoyed it and found I had a bit of a gift for remembering lines. After a few months, many of my friends thought I had the world at my feet, great job, newly engaged, life seemed peachy! Little did they know I was struggling with depression and suicide!
One day in my beautiful “barbie perfect” – (it was pale pink), skirt suit, matching heels and briefcase, I fell to the floor in front of the elevator in grief and desperation. It felt like no matter how hard I fought and struggled against the emotions, it was like Iwas being sucked into a black hole of despair. I literally cried out “God if you are there, then please help me, I can’t do this on my own any more!”
I made a choice to listen as my last ditch effort, to listen and see if I would get a response. Each week I would take time out to sit down in nature somewhere and say, “OK God please tell me something I understand.”
Every Time He would unfold a story or metaphor that touched and healed my heart piece by piece. I journaled them and now getting close to two decades later, they are here in this beautifully photographed and designed book, whispering the same love and healing into the heart of every reader.
I pray you hear it too, and know you truly are Beautiful!